Everyone ALWAYS give me crap about being TOO over protective with the boys. I never want them to see violence, shooting, horrible fits of anger…etc… I GET CRAP ALL THE TIME!!
This weekend while at a Yard Sale, Claire finds “Indiana Jones – Raiders of the Lost Ark”….rated PG. I was hesitant about it, but, I remember seeing it in 8th gradish…and do not remember being scarred from it…so, I let them watch it. They watched it 4 times since Saturday!!! That is essentially ALL they have watched!

SOOO…today, Adam comes screaming and crying….holding the back of his head……AND TELLS ME!!!!!!!!!!! ANDREW WAS PLAYING INDIANA JONES AND THREW WOOD AT MY HEAD!! A HUGE BLOCK OF SOLID WOOD!!! They were his “stones”!!!! WHAT THE HELL WAS HE THINKING!!!???

Call me overprotective……..but, these boys are in some SERIOUS media lock down! WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING???

FREAKING INDIANA JONES!!

I officially know WHY hockey is the ONLY sport they do in Canada!!! THE COST OF REGISTRATION!!!

I am BLOWN AWAY!!!

Andrew’s registration fee is $760.00 and Adam’s is $475. I thought that the little league fees of $170.00 were high!!!

Claire is hell bent that the boys are playing soccer. I enjoy them playing in uniforms that are less than their body weight! SOOOO…we have until July 15th to make up our minds.

Adam’s Birthday Invitation Cover

I am at my breaking point with everyone and everything…in my house.

I really REALLY miss working/consulting and I really hate doing NOTHING but stuff for EVERYONE else. I know that sounds selfish, but my GOD…I was NOT created to make sure EVERYONE else is happy, fed, to appointments on time, clean enough, full enough, happy enough, smart enough, and loved enough.

I NEED A FREAKING BREAK FROM IT ALL!!!

I am sure that I am just pissed…but, I miss ME. I miss being smart and figuring out geeky code. I miss adult interaction for geeky things. I realistically do NOT have time for this now because Claire is only home for 30 minutes in the morning and 1 hour at night to help with the kids. HOW THE HELL DOES EVERYONE DO THIS???????? HOW HOW HOW!!!

I look at several of you that have full time working husbands….and you are moms…full time…and happy with it! HOW? I started eLearningToys.com when my kids were toddlers because I HATED being at home! I AM BACK IN THE SAME BOAT! I volunteer at the school when Adam is there for his 2.5 hours a day several times a week and I love it….but, it is just not the SAME!

I worked on Adam’s birthday invitations today and love how they came out. I went WAY overboard in doing them….but, I needed something to do with my head. The other parents may think I am a lunitic but you know what….I really really really do NOT give a SHIT! That is ONE thing that I have been gifted of here….I really am MUCH more self assured and confident about my decisions and parenting on a day to day basis. I bring Andrew lunch at lunch time most days….the other moms get it ready before school…..I DON’T CARE! This way works for me! One mom asked me why I do it this way…..she is sort of a snooty little one….I smiled and said “because it works for me”…and that was that…..She has not asked me too many questions since then

Everyone knows that I am a NUT about birthdays…and I am BEYOND sad that Adam’s friends from NH will not be there. Adam actually ASKED where everyone was going to sleep when they got here for his party! I thought that he was wanting to have a sleep over party….then he explained that everyone was going to be flying into Calgary for his party! When I explained that was not the case …he got sad…and said….”well then who is coming to my party….just two kids ??(Graham and Griffin). I explained that we were inviting the kids in his class and he was a bit horrified…..He said that they did not even know where we lived….and that no one was going to come. MY GOD THIS CRAP IS HARD!!! SERIOUSLY HARD!!!! I got it all worked out in his little world….and we went onto some other topic….but, I see his point! He just wants HIS world back too!

Claire is still in hell….and it sucks. I don’t really know what to do to get her to bounce back. I hope time helps. I am worried about her a LOT.

One good thing that happened this week is Northwest’s fare break from Hartford, CT to Calgary! They were running a fare for $222.00!!! I saw it and called my friend Leslie in New York right away and asked her if she wanted to DRIVE two HOURS to Hartford and come out for the weekend! SHE IS COMING!!! LESLIE IS COMING!!! LESLIE IS COMING NEXT WEEKEND! 9 days away to be exact! So, that was my silver lining of the week. Someone familiar…someone I love…..is coming to Calgary! I could not be happier about it.

Today we had a hail storm…no shit…a HAIL STORM!!! a LONG LONG one! It was sort of odd!

I am going to put ads on my blog. It is a HARD decision to, but, the ads, when clicked, bring in revenue and simply put, we need the buffer right now. The cost of everything insane…no matter how much we try to save. I will try to put them so they are not annoying. If they are, let me know. I don’t want people not to read because of ads. If you see something interesting, by God, click on it!! Also, tell your friends, family, etc about the blog. I would like to get more readers and traffic just to make things fun and interesting.

I don’t think that I will ever stop being homesick. We have been here 7 weeks…2 months next week. Odd huh! I am so happy that my street ROCKS….and that I really feel comfortable being ME here….another silver lining

Love to all of you.
Anne

I have been following the FLDS case pretty closely. I think that the men should be taken away….and dealt with…..my opinion…but, WHAT THE HELL IS TEXAS DOING???

Let’s just say by CHANCE…there was family that was Catholic and they got a call from a 16 year old girl that said she was being abused by her father and other MEN….the state would go in and take the MEN out of the house, issue a restraining order of some sort……and PROTECT the children and mother.

I realize that this IS different and there is some MAJOR responsibility that the mother has to talk in all of this, but from ALL reports, the mothers have not physically abused the children sexually…. The neglect of not reporting the abuse is not excusable and there needs to be SOMETHING that happens….but, I have a MAJOR MAJOR MAJOR problem with these children being taken out of their homes….and FURTHERMORE…

THERE IS NO REASON TO TAKE BABIES AWAY FROM THEIR MOTHERS IF THE MEN WHO ARE ABUSING THEM ARE NOT IN THE PICTURE!!

I realize that everyone is not going to agree with me.  BUT MY GOD!!! I just read that a woman who was nursing a 13 month old was separated from her baby. 13 months old! The state of Texas decided that 12 months is that is acceptable for nursing to cease! These people are VERY different from us. They nurse 3-4 times longer due to cultural and economic reasons! MY GOD! There are 61 babies under 3 years old now abruptly taken from their mother’s breasts.

I feel so strongly about this ….primarily because of baby Rowen. I knew about Emily being pregnant before she was even showing…and waited each day for his birth.  Then saw him grow and grow and grow….as a happy and perfect little person….with only one thing for food….Emily’s breast milk. These children are surviving because of their mother’s milk….and now they are going to place them in a different environment, stress their bodies and hearts to great lengths…..and now…..they are going to lose important body weight/mass due to the state of Texas’ inability to see the OBVIOUS needs of the children because of bureaucracy.

This is my opinion…..I just can’t stand that babies are being ripped from their mothers’ arms. I don’t know that I have the solution for this ENORMOUS problem. I pray for those TRYING to make such difficult decisions….and I pray that SOMEONE  realizes that a 13 month old baby is 100% too young to abruptly stop breast feeding.

Where do you guys stand on all of this?  Tell me…..even if you completely disagree…..tell me.

How can this crap happen in our world?? HOW?

Anne

today, I am miserable.

I want to go home.

I can’t stand being here alone, Claire working so long, and my kids are out of control. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.

Claire leaves at 7:30ish and comes home between 6 and 6:30. Is that a long day? It seems like it is overkill to me…is it just me??? I miss her TERRIBLY and feel like my heart is being ripped out. I love her so much and can’t stand that I can’t see her at all. Why is this so HARD??? Why can’t I just DEAL with it and go on like everyone else???

Claire needs my support because she started a new job and is insecure about it. By the time she gets home, I am 100% “DONE”…and I just act like a jerk. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME????

I just want my LIFE back.