calgon….take me away
- Thursday May 8,2008 08:46 PM
- By Anne
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Adam’s Birthday Invitation Cover
I am at my breaking point with everyone and everything…in my house.
I really REALLY miss working/consulting and I really hate doing NOTHING but stuff for EVERYONE else. I know that sounds selfish, but my GOD…I was NOT created to make sure EVERYONE else is happy, fed, to appointments on time, clean enough, full enough, happy enough, smart enough, and loved enough.
I NEED A FREAKING BREAK FROM IT ALL!!!
I am sure that I am just pissed…but, I miss ME. I miss being smart and figuring out geeky code. I miss adult interaction for geeky things. I realistically do NOT have time for this now because Claire is only home for 30 minutes in the morning and 1 hour at night to help with the kids. HOW THE HELL DOES EVERYONE DO THIS???????? HOW HOW HOW!!!
I look at several of you that have full time working husbands….and you are moms…full time…and happy with it! HOW? I started eLearningToys.com when my kids were toddlers because I HATED being at home! I AM BACK IN THE SAME BOAT! I volunteer at the school when Adam is there for his 2.5 hours a day several times a week and I love it….but, it is just not the SAME!
I worked on Adam’s birthday invitations today and love how they came out. I went WAY overboard in doing them….but, I needed something to do with my head. The other parents may think I am a lunitic but you know what….I really really really do NOT give a SHIT! That is ONE thing that I have been gifted of here….I really am MUCH more self assured and confident about my decisions and parenting on a day to day basis. I bring Andrew lunch at lunch time most days….the other moms get it ready before school…..I DON’T CARE! This way works for me! One mom asked me why I do it this way…..she is sort of a snooty little one….I smiled and said “because it works for me”…and that was that…..She has not asked me too many questions since then 
Everyone knows that I am a NUT about birthdays…and I am BEYOND sad that Adam’s friends from NH will not be there. Adam actually ASKED where everyone was going to sleep when they got here for his party! I thought that he was wanting to have a sleep over party….then he explained that everyone was going to be flying into Calgary for his party! When I explained that was not the case …he got sad…and said….”well then who is coming to my party….just two kids ??(Graham and Griffin). I explained that we were inviting the kids in his class and he was a bit horrified…..He said that they did not even know where we lived….and that no one was going to come. MY GOD THIS CRAP IS HARD!!! SERIOUSLY HARD!!!! I got it all worked out in his little world….and we went onto some other topic….but, I see his point! He just wants HIS world back too!
Claire is still in hell….and it sucks. I don’t really know what to do to get her to bounce back. I hope time helps. I am worried about her a LOT. 
One good thing that happened this week is Northwest’s fare break from Hartford, CT to Calgary! They were running a fare for $222.00!!! I saw it and called my friend Leslie in New York right away and asked her if she wanted to DRIVE two HOURS to Hartford and come out for the weekend! SHE IS COMING!!! LESLIE IS COMING!!! LESLIE IS COMING NEXT WEEKEND! 9 days away to be exact! So, that was my silver lining of the week. Someone familiar…someone I love…..is coming to Calgary! I could not be happier about it.
Today we had a hail storm…no shit…a HAIL STORM!!! a LONG LONG one! It was sort of odd!
I am going to put ads on my blog. It is a HARD decision to, but, the ads, when clicked, bring in revenue and simply put, we need the buffer right now. The cost of everything insane…no matter how much we try to save. I will try to put them so they are not annoying. If they are, let me know. I don’t want people not to read because of ads. If you see something interesting, by God, click on it!! Also, tell your friends, family, etc about the blog. I would like to get more readers and traffic just to make things fun and interesting.
I don’t think that I will ever stop being homesick. We have been here 7 weeks…2 months next week. Odd huh! I am so happy that my street ROCKS….and that I really feel comfortable being ME here….another silver lining
Love to all of you.
Anne
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9 Comments
HEY!!! Change is hard, very hard. I never could do the stay at home mom thing either, so don’t feel alone about that. Things will even out it just takes time. There’s no easy answers right now, but think about the feelings of bias in NH and how accepting Calgary is. I know that the moment doesn’t feel better but the overall health for ALL OF YOU will be better. The weekend is here, girl, get to some yard sales, watch a few movies just with Claire and enjoy the neighborhood. We love you lots and let me know when the next visit to Calgary should come….I can get to Hartford too! We love you all and I know your pain, just take it one day at a time.
Oh, yeah, the invites look AWESOME. My little boy is so grown up. Are you feeding him??? Where’s those pudgy cheeks of his?
Hi Anne,
I decided I needed a break from moving insanity so I am using my break to check in with you. WOW!!!
First of all I LOVE Adam’s invites. My poor kids spent his b-day moving furniture and eating pizza in the drive way because we had no table. We ate cake at 9 pm!!!
As far as being a stay@home…it’s not for everyone;) I have always looked at it as a huge blessing. God gave me these wonderful people to care for and love and look after while I have them. Some days are a little hard and I am ready to knock someones head off but those a few are far between for me. It is hard as someone who would NOT enjoy working out of the house to understand how someone else can’t wait to get OUT of the house. I try but I don’t get it just like I am sure you don’t always get me.;) Everyday is a challenge to face head on. We are all where God puts us and our challenge is to make the best of it, love, laugh and grow. Someday all to soon your kids will be grown and gone. They’ll come back for a visit but only a visit. My goal everyday is to work myself out of a job.
Miss you…
H
I Love that you can stay home and do those extra things with your boys. They will grow and be gone in the blink of a eye. You are doing the right thing to store up all these childhood memories with them. Tell Claire I hope she gets to feeling better soon. It helps to think about the present and all the things you have together in the present. That is all you can really do something about.
Did you think about going to the local library to get a book of magic tricks and teach Adam one or two before his party?
Wish I could be with you in you hail and snow. It is already hot and humid here. That equates to cutting the grass every week.
With Love,
MOM:))))***
Its official you are a mom! feeling like you’ve been stepped on like a rug on a doorstep, remember you are doing everything for the best for those boys! If brining Andrew his lunch everyday works then do it the school is not far, it probably is good for him to see you too…those other moms are probably just jealous because they can’t do it! Next year you won’t be able to do it
Being out of work for a year and a half was the best time of my life, remember it won’t last forever enjoy the time now - Although last year I enjoyed being home it was sucky on some days only having Alyssa in school half day, I felt like I couldn’t get anything started at home because as soon as I would get involved it would be time to pick her up and after I picked her up it was lunch and then no time again to start much because Zack needed to be picked up - I totally get it. But I also think once Adam is in school full day it will get easier - and your career will be there when its time. But in saying that you do need to do something for you - is there any online coarses? you had mentioned you wanted to go back to school. This blog will help you - we are here for you XOXO I read what everyone writes and they all sound like caring people who love your family alot - you can feel the love in all the blogs…..
Hang in there my friend - we are playing telephone tag I know - I will call you when I get out of work today. Glad to hear you have a friend coming to visit maybe that too will help
Let Adam & Andre know we love them
Talk soon have a better day
xoxoxoxoxo
l-a-z-e
Hi Anne!!! The invitations are awesome!!! I’m so jealous! I wanted to do an invitation for Rowen but no where near that cool!! Adam will have such a fun time with the magician!
It definitely is not easy being a stay at home mom which comes with all sorts of crazy demands!! We as mothers wear so many different hats! And its hard to learn and accept that we can’t always do it perfectly and the way everyone else wants it. DO NOT be so hard on yourself!! You are a great mother and partner and your family is blessed to have you. Like Lisa said…try to find something that you enjoy and maybe that will feel like you have something of your own and that you enjoy. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend and get some bonding time together. Love you all lots and miss you much!!
Em
The invites are super cool! ( invite biz in the works?) You are awesome… ditto what everyone else has said… just one thing to add… remember those days not tooooo many years ago when all you YEARNED for is a little voice to call out for YOU! That all you wanted to do is to have little toys to pick up
And yes, lunches to make! But, of course you need to take time for you.. but just remember there are lots of people in the position that we were once in… wanting with everything inside of us to hear ” I love you momma” and u get to hear that now 
Hey speaking of.. did u hear the crazy changes in UA now? Happy Mothers Day tomorrow to you and Claire! You are really fortunate to have your happy, healthy boys 
Love ~ Krista
The Party invitations are the cutest I have ever seen. Think of all your blessings and storing up those memories with the boys and Claire. The situation will eventually change. You will find your intelectual stimulation in a way that you can still be the great mama to your boys. Happy Mothers day to both you and Claire.
With Love,
MOM:)))****
Happy Mothers Day !!!!
I love the invitation, it is perfect. When snooty moms ask questions such as the one she asked simply reply…”Because I can”. It gets them everytime. Hang in there girlfriend !!! Hey, if you are looking for a small job, I know of a perfect one for you. Let me know if you are interested. It pays cash and under the table.
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