want to go home
- Wednesday Apr 23,2008 09:08 AM
- By Anne
- In Uncategorized
today, I am miserable.
I want to go home.
I can’t stand being here alone, Claire working so long, and my kids are out of control. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
Claire leaves at 7:30ish and comes home between 6 and 6:30. Is that a long day? It seems like it is overkill to me…is it just me??? I miss her TERRIBLY and feel like my heart is being ripped out. I love her so much and can’t stand that I can’t see her at all. Why is this so HARD??? Why can’t I just DEAL with it and go on like everyone else???
Claire needs my support because she started a new job and is insecure about it. By the time she gets home, I am 100% “DONE”…and I just act like a jerk. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME????
I just want my LIFE back.
30ish, Heart, Hell, Home Today, Jerk, New Job
12 Comments
It will get better. This is settling in time for everyone. The kids have been AWFUL at times. I cannot believe that these are the same kids that we had back in NH.
The snow will stop some day….I hope and then more people will be outside, you will be able to work in the garden….small as it may be, and it will get better.
And the kids start soccer and baseball soon - we can sell hot dogs and drinks from our garage and watch their games. That will keep you busy.
PS. I love you.
All of us have been “there” at some point. Just hang in. Try taking a walk as soon as Claire comes in the door. Not a long one just around the block or long enough to remember she worked hard today and so did you and you both need a soft place to fall. Plus it will give Claire alone time with the boys to get their day in a nut shell from their perspective (which is ALWAYS different from your own).
Love you both!
H
Hang in there girlfriend, the boys are just getting used to their routine. Once they have a schedule your will fall into place. You guys are doing terrific, go for a wlak around the block when Claire comes home, you certainly have enough daylight to enjoy !!!!
so, we just got off the phone with you and Alyssa heard me say “see you do have nice friends over there” well she automatically assumed “Andrew/Adam” and is very upset that Andrew will have a new “girl friend” and his heart will break and she will be in his heart and not her……Good God!!! Please let Andrew know that Alyssa loves and misses him dearly!!!
XOX
Talk to you soon -
I Love you soooo much and know this has to be the hardest adjustment you have ever had to make. I wish I could be there to give you a big hug. It will be better when you are able to make more friends locally. Hang on to the good thoughts, a little time could give you a better adjustment. Not that I am the all wise one about these matters.
With LOve,
MOM :)))))*******
Andrew was elated to talk to her. He talked about her the ENTIRE dinner!! E-N-T-I-R-E!!!! Tell Alyssa NOT to worry. Andrew’s love for her is not ANY WHERE near fading!!! He SCREAMED when he heard it was her on the phone!
I think you are correct with the routine…that is the part that is missing. Thank you so much for your sweet words. They mean the WORLD to me!
I love the “soft place to fall”. You THINK that we have different views???
Remember Bridezilla week!!! 
I miss you Holly!
You really are the best mom in the world. Honestly. I can’t wait to see you.
Hang in there Anne
Stand on your head for a while, that will turn your frown upside down 
Everyone there is adjusting…Keep thinking positive… this too shall pass. This is HUGE for all of you, but you can do it honey. And what an idea Claire had… hotdogs and pop! Add some posies and you two will be gazillionaires!!! I wish I had more inspiring words for you.. but really.. the frown thing is about it for me…lol.. Praying for you all ~ Krista
I miss you too:(
Where’s my call back?
Love Ya,
H OXOXO
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