today was a sad day. sadness all around.

 Adam was invited to his first birthday party of the year. It is a little girl who is in his reading group…they are the only 2 in the group. He talks about her EVERY day when he gets home. He sprang out of his kindergarten class today to tell me that he received an invitation to Zoe’s birthday party and his smile was as bright as the sun.

My heart sank immediately, as I knew with 7 days left in NH, there was very little chance that the party would be taking place within our time here…..and I was right…..the party is March 16th.  I waited until we got into the van and told him that we would be in Calgary on the 16th. He said he could leave and come back just for her party and that I could come and get him afterwards….he is 5……he has NO IDEA how far away we are going. I explained further….and the tears began…..real big tears….ones that make me, even thinking about it now….cry for his little hurt heart. It is the very first time that the move has effected him in such a way. He is not really into friends yet, and was probably the most well adjusted one out of the 4 of us adjusting to the move and transition.

So, I hugged him and we both cried.

This is hard. Saying goodbye…..promising that things will not change….and going to a place so far away….no knowing a soul…..and even worse….have no one there know our  souls……

today was sad. I am sad.

anne